Sexuality and infertility…

I have been doing some soul searching lately and some thinking about my connection I have with a lot of the women that come to me for the experience of a boudoir shoot. I am very much a thinker, my mind will not shut up…so in some type of convoluted way, I am going to attempt to explain my thoughts on why this is such a passion for me. 

I was sexually molested as a child. As often times, it was at the hands of family memebers (yes, plural) and through most of my adult life I had always brushed the events off as “no big deal” because I wasn’t raped or, if I recall correctly, not even touched myself, but made to touch them. So, this didn’t seem like a big deal to me. I have had friends tell me their stories of abuse and they seem way more horrific than mine, but evidently mine WAS a big deal in the way my mind and sexuality formed. 

I have had patterns in my life of some serious self sabotage related to the way my subconscious viewed myself. I have uprooted my life and several relationships and have done some really stupid things (as all humans have). It’s like if things are going really good, my mind says, ” let’s see what we can do to eff this up royally!” 

Now, to the heart of this conversation…I have struggled with infertility all of my life. Yes, I have a son, and he’s a fluke lol. I’m not really sure how I did finally get pregnant with him because I had went for years and through different procedures trying to get pregnant and finally did at age 27. Then had a terrible pregnancy and almost anything that could go wrong during it, did. It sucked. I hated being pregnant (took a lot of therapy for me to even be able to say that without guilt about it) but when he was born, was just an absolute dream (and still is!). 

Infertility is a wicked thing, women are SUPPOSED to have babies. That’s what society and your family, and everyone else you ever meet, once someone gets married the next question is when are you going to have babies….infertility does something to you as a woman. It beats you up and fills you with shame and guilt and can attack your subconscious mind in a bad way. (Sexual molestation and infertility can be linked together actually, want more information on that read this article.). 

I have had so many women sit in my office during a consultation that have struggled with infertility. They definitely forget they are beautiful and still very much are women who can and should be loved and adored and desired!! This is what makes having a shoot done, such an empowering experience for them. It’s okay, actually encouraged, to feel like you are someone beautiful, sexy, even wanton in my place. Sex isn’t a dirty thing, having sexual desires isn’t bad, and being a woman who can embrace the characteristics of being a woman, is priceless to be able to feel, for a change, like a woman who is beautiful regardless of what your body won’t do. I love to see a woman see herself on the back of my camera in a new and different, guilt-free way and to watch them blossom and get in touch with the place in their brain that forgives themselves for being “inadequate”.  

Now, thankfully in my life, even dealing with secondary infertility for several years after having my son, I’m done with desiringto have  more children. It was a long hard process to come to terms with and to know I won’t be able to give my husband a child of his own, I realize I’m not inadequate to him and he loves me for me anyway (for whatever reason lol) and I have come a very long way in my journey to be happy and healthy. It heals me to help other women and I feel it helps my connection with women because I’ve been through some crap too, we all have. 

I hope this makes some sense and thanks for reading if you’re at this last sentence!!! We are all just doing the best we can to get through this life, love each other!! 

Don’t you wish you knew her….

This lady right here just blew us away with her shoot!!!  Seriously, who knew she was a little vixen lol?!?  Here are some of her anonymous shots…I am so glad we had the opportunity to shoot this gorgeous girl and I have many more of her that aren’t anonymous!!  Thanks again to Contessa for the amazing job […]

Exciting news…and a sweet little video

I haven’t posted much about my life lately, mainly because I have been too busy living it to be able to pause and write about it…but there are lots of changes coming!!

First of all, we will be moving to a new location soon, there will, of course, be more information on that coming in the next few weeks (P.S. it’s PeRfEcT :D).  We are still booking appointments and are almost booked up for September and October (get in touch SOON if you are thinking of doing this for Christmas!!!).

Second, I am in the process of revamping my website, it’s just always a work in progress and I will be incorporating some professional help too.  There will also be more package options and different price points to suit every budget!

Third, we are now offering something really cool that I have came up with and named “alpha-body” sessions.  That’s where we take parts of your body and the shape of it, to spell out words, such as your lovers name or some other significant word that means something to you.  These sessions are so cool and I have examples at the studio that you can see!!

Lastly, I just love this shoot so much, she truly rocked it, so I made a little video to share too! I hope you all have a great day, thanks for stopping by and reading!!

Ms. A

This beautiful lady wanted to do something special for her husband and herself!!  She came in and got to take a break from reality and feel like the gorgeous person she is…we are so blessed to be a part of this experience for all of our wonderful client!!

As you can see, she totally demolished this shoot and is a total babe!!!  Thanks Ms. A for allowing us to know you 😀

Why we do what we do…

I am humbled, honored, and amazed at the women who trust in us to do this experience!!!  We have been in the studio for two years and have met some of the most amazing women and heard some incredible stories.  We have laughed, and we have cried, and we have celebrated together…as women.

Some have come into the studio that we have never met before, but they leave and they are our new friends.  We do not just “take pictures” here.  My team of beautiful ladies that help me out are my biggest cheerleaders and fans, and I could not do this without them!!  It is truly magical to see the transformation during a shoot when every single woman I have in front of my camera starts off so unsure and then just blossoms into a confident, sexy, beautiful soul and walks out with their head a little higher, it truly is a passion for me!

I have expended quite a bit of energy into learning this art, and I learn and improve with every shoot.  We do this because we love empowering women!!  Women forget they are beautiful creatures and we get so busy being mamas, wives, caregivers, employees, and everything else that we are, that we forget to celebrate being a woman!

I know sometimes life gets busy, you feel your body isn’t “perfect,” your nerves tell you that you can’t do this, you don’t think you can look like the past clients we have shot, or you feel you need an excuse to do a shoot…I know it’s easy to get negative BUT go read some of our reviews here from our past clients who probably all felt the same way, but did it anyway and were glad they didn’t wait another minute!!

Happy birthday to Jessica, she’s the beauty at the top of this post today.  If you’d like to see more from her shoot, check them out here!! She is one of our awesome stories and one of our cheerleaders too!!

 

 

Double the fun!!

Here are a few more from recent couples sessions we did…I LOVE capturing the connection between people, from the laughs and smiles, to the sexy looks they have for one another…..and these peeps all rocked it!!! They all had to step out of their comfort zone and it was harder to do for the men than the women sometimes!!!  When it was all said and done, they all had such a fun time and have all said they would love to do it again. It is a great experience to have together and would make a great anniversary, engagement, or just make a new special occasion together!

One of our new favorite things…

We have been dying to try this for a long time!!!  We recently did a model call for couples so we could build our portfolio of that genre, if we liked doing them…we didn’t just “like” doing it, we LOVE it!!! It is cool to capture a couples passion for one another, but still keeping it rather tasteful!!  Here is a little teaser video we made to show off one of the couples we have done.  There is plenty more to see in studio, give us a call to come check out all of our new stuff!!  336-710-8567

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Hey, you…yes, you!!

Do you ever get tired of everyone else’s needs being met before your own?  Have you lost your identity as a woman instead of always just being mommy or wifey?  Would you love to be able to look at a photograph of yourself and have it transform how you feel and elevate your mood?  We can help!!

Being healthy and happy starts with your mentality and how you feel about yourself…there is a whole bunch of psychology in that statement that I won’t get into, but you view yourself how you tell yourself to.  While we make no guarantees about this experience and how it will improve your self esteem, you can just take a look at the reviews that some of our past clients have left for us.  Give us your tiny little seed of self confidence and we think we can help it to blossom into something more!!  Plus, it is one of the most fun experiences to have, and everyone needs a little more fun in their life!!

Give us a call today at 336-710-8567 to book your, no obligation, no sales pitchy, just hang out for 30 minutes with me, to let us help you see why you should do this now, not later, consultation!!

 

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It’s a bird, it’s a plane, it’s….

Super hottie!!!!

This shy, quite beauty blew our socks off!!  She came in as most all of our clients do, nervous!!  After a make over and getting her hair done by our own Adrienne and Contessa, she was ready to take on this photo shoot, and she did it fabulously! I love when ladies bring in something that their significant other likes or that is based on something they like…sports stuff, guns, record players, comic books, cigars…just all kinds of things, it’s so much fun!!

Give us a call for a free consultation to help you make this happen, you deserve it!!  336-710-8567